Bad News

So, I got the worst news ever last night. I found out that my brother was arrested, again. Part of me was shocked, and part of me was stuck in limb waiting for this day to come. I know that it sounds really horrible, and maybe it is. But the truth of the matter is simple, he just doesn't care how much he hurts us.

I am at a loss as to what I can do, or what to say to/for my mom. I want to help, and get her through this the best way that I can. But I am not even sure how I am going to get through this. All I can think is that I might never see him again, what's going to happen to him? Did I not love him enough? Was I a horrible sister? I know that this has nothing to do with me, intellectually speaking, but emotionally I feel as if I have failed him. I feel like I am failing my family right now.

In some ways I hope that this is the end, I really want my mom to be able to focus on herself; Her getting better, and being able to enjoy her life a little bit. But I just don't know how either of us is going to do that. I love him, despite all that has happened, he is my brother, my blood and I love him more than he could ever comprehend. My heart breaks for him, that he is so unhappy that he sees this as the only path to finding the happiness that eludes him.

Pictures from the Temple

So, well I have had the pictures that my AWESOME big bro Rik took for us at the San Diego Temple for a little while now. They really turned out awesome, we just love them. So I put together a "slide show" of some of my fave pics. Enjoy!

Make a slideshow - it's easy!

Cool New Features

So, I added some stuff to my blog. As I am sure you can see, but I think that it's pretty cool. I figured it out all by myself. So I am prety stoked! I love this website called Lilypie.com. You can create "tickers" for almost anything. I found out about them on Babycenter. I have one for Molly as my "siggie" on there. I like them cause they are soo easy to use, and then it let's people know what you want them to know. Now when people ask me how much longer I have with the pregnancy, I can just say." Check my Blog!!" Sweet huh??

Sam hearts HOT MOMS!

Okay, so before I begin I just have to say, Thanks Jen for that t-shirt for Sam! Okay so now for the explanation.... so we are at a pizza party for Stephen's baseball team today. Sam decided to wear his "hot moms" t-shirt. Not a problem, he has worn it many times with no problems. Well today was different. Some chick at the Lamppost Pizza that we were at saw Sam and his now infamous shirt, and started hitting on him! Now for those who know my sweetie well, this was well freaking hilarious for me, and extremely uncomfortable for Sam. She said nice shirt, he said thanks, she asked what makes a mom "hot"? He said, um mm, while turning a shade of red that I am not sure that I have ever seen him turn before.

Now Sam being well, let's face it Sam; did not know what to say or how to respond. So he stood there and feebly attempted to extricate himself from the situation. Now any other guy, married or in a relationship would have said, Thanks my wife/gf gave it to me when asked about their shirt. And when grilled as to what makes a "mom hot?", would have answered again with you should ask my wife/gf. But alas poor Sam did none of these things, and was forced to try and talk his way out. Hopefully this will be a lesson to the poor boy, next time just send them your wife's way!

Addicted to BabyCenter

Okay, so here it is...I am an addict. I am ADDICTED to Babycenter.com. There it's out, I said it! WOW! It's so nice to get that off my chest. Okay, so in pursuit of my addictions I came across a thread that hit home with me. One of the members of the LDSfamilies board that I read and post on, was recently called to be the Laurel advisor. She recently found out that one her laurels is aprox. 6mo preg. She was a lttle miffed that she was not told of the situation by the YW pres. She asked for people's opinions, as well as how she could possibly help this girl.

WELL she opened a HUGE can of worms. There has been a gamut of response that range from supportive, but slightly distanced to those that are extremely judgemental. Well in light of this particular topic, it got me thinking about well when I was pregnant with Stephen. I was a laurel, active in my ward..well to a certain extent. But the one thing that I remember, was that I was never asked to leave YW just because I was pregnant. I was never treated less than the other girls because I had chosen a different path. After Sam and I got married, and after Stephen was born I naturally went to Relief Society, but so did all the other girls that were in my Laurel class.

So reading all the posts that people had written made me so glad that I not only had a supportive family, but that the members of my ward were so supportive as well. Now i don't by any means think that they supported the choice that i had made to have sex before i got married, but they treated me no different just the same.