Well, I am sadly enough "hoping" that our recent bought with tantrums and constant melt downs are just a case of the "terrible 2's". Scary, I know..but well to be completely honest the alternative is just....well scarier. After a lot and I mean A LOT of thinking, I came to the realization that I went through this same behavior with Caleb when he was this age. And seeing how well that turned out, I guess anyone could see my apprehension. I just do not know how much more I can take, the constant screaming, the melt downs for no concievable reason..it wears on you. It's like the grating sound of nails on a chalk board. The part that makes me cringe, is that I can see, and recognize how it affects my family. How it makes me hard to be around, how short tempered i get with my husband and my kids. I just do not know what to do to prevent history from repeating it self. I saw how it strained my marriage, and how it made my kids feel like they had to walk on egg shells all the time. It was not a happy time in my house. Even as I sit here, I can feel the tension from the "attitude" rolling off me like waves on a lake. How do you "compromise" with this?? How do you make a deal with a very sad 2 yo little girl?? I love her, but sometimes I wanna just wring her little neck!! And then this happens! As I sit her "venting" about her, she falls asleep laying on my shoulder!!!
It's hard to be upset when she's so darn cute while she sleeps!! Well better here, on "paper" than screaming at all the kids!!
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I have no experience as a mother to share but i will say hang in there and that i love you. We are never given trials more than we can handle and lately I have been feeling frustrated with our home situation and the lack of care & support. There are days I just feel like ignoring Grams because I am so tired of fighting or pushing for her to take care of herself. If we don't then she declines and it is heartwrenching to watch. Then my father-in-law shows up and tells me to go to mutual even though I was supposed to be home with her that night. What a blessing it was to feel the extra love and support from him and come home to a clean kitchen. I never post things like this publicly but I want you to know that I love and support you. hang in there!
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