Punk Rock Girl

Friday, January 30, 2009

Ignorance Isn't Always Bliss

Those of you that know me, know that I am what most would consider a Realist. I am not one to see the good in everyone, I am the one that wants to know what you want, and what you are going to get out of it. My sweet Sammy J on the other hand..well he's the one that see's the good in everyone and every situation. This is one of the things that I love most about him. Sadley this is also one of the things that I hate as well.

Being who he is, He is taken advatage of on a consistent basis. It is so frusterating to sit back and watch this all unfold in front of you. It sucks to know that while he is going out of his way to do something nice, it is not going to be appreciated. But heaven forbid that he doesn't do what ever was asked of him. I love how he is so willing to give of himself and his time, I just wish that he was a little more stingy. He works so hard, between school and work and trying to cram time with us at home as well. So to see how ungrateful some people are when that time that is so precious to us is given so freely...well it makes my blood boil! And to make things worse...it caused so much contention between us. I think that we argue more about outside issues than we do any other time. I am not saying that we never disagree or that we never fight because that would not be the truth. We argue, we disagree, but we also make up and agree to disagree. But when the "other stuff" comes up..it makes it hard to make up. It makes me sad, and I know that it makes him sad too...I just don't know how to get my point across without puting some serious ultimatums on the table; and I do not think that doing that would be constuctive at all. I know that life is not going to be Roses and Sunshine all the time, nor do I expect it to be..but a few good days here and there...is that too much to ask?

1 comment:

EvaMarieva said...

Sometimes you need to be a realist and honest though. Throughout taking care of Grams I have become much more of a realist than I was years ago and it has really helped my sanity. You were such a great friend and example to me and when I needed a realist you were there. I love that!